A Beautiful World

I am just posting about what I am doing, and interested in... I go through many phases, so I spose I will record them...

Sunday, May 28

Graduation Party 2006

This party was awesome! Milkshake's mom sure does know to throw a party! I got some money from a bunch of people I dont know, and it was pimp! People came, so that makes me feel like I actually have a family... They are my family...
$90 in checks
$165 in cash
$160 in electronic
$50 in the mail
Now the girls have the most out of all four of us, with well over $800 a piece!
Thanks to the world!
Thickeless

Friday, May 26

Graduation 2006

Maybe I should eat something. On to the rice cakes! I wish I could be listening to music right now, but that has to wait another forever. I am done with my shower and now I can play some games until 1 something... I really dont feel like posting right now.
I feel:
Kinda icky
Bored
Drowsy

Friday, May 19

Right now... Everything is turning blue...


I cried! Marissa died! Not passed out, or hit her head, but she is gone dead, never to be seen of again...
Things are getting iffy! I have to finish this class and I have to do it quick!
I have to eat my food.
I have to watch them playoffs, woo!
I have to talk to Krystal about tomorrow, we have to do something!!!
I hope I get something on Monday.
This isnt a real post. One year I am truly going to review all those Cd's I have yet to do... Maybe when I get my laptop at Orientation!
Graduation

Monday, May 15

I'll Attack: Day 1

This is my last full week of school before Graduation!
Physics--- Watched people test their machines. Ours is probably still the only one that is consistent, but just because we are lazy. The Lazy Susans.
Themes--Did some boring Utopia reading, got my first draft back, and got a Nose music maker...
BST--Learning how to write a website! Its fun, pagetutor is awesome...
4th Hour--- Corrected some worksheets.
Lunch--- Library Aide Lunch, 4 Pieces of pizza from the Zone!
5th Hour--- Filled out a Subway App for Senior Seminar, worked on website.
Library Aide--- Searched a novel for a favorite part and finally found it at the end of the hour.
English 12--- Finished my work, wrote an Event piece and started my final writing assignment to complete tomorrow.

Choir Tomorrow in the Band Room...

Hmm... They Smell Like Roses...


What am I doing? I have no clue, but these are the roses he gave me. Beautiful aren't they? I got him a shirt in return, but I really wish I knew what was going on. Why do I have to be so darn likeable? Why can't I be ugly and untrustworthy and a seriously lame person? That would make this so much nicer... Lol. Eventually I will get used to him being around and be able to enjoy myself on the inside comfortably and not just act like it on the outside...

Friday, May 12

30 Minutes to Heaven


I feel so much better now! I think I am too lazy to post a picture today.. Oh, gosh I spose I will...
The HighUp
Prom was great
I'm not being a hater about José anymore, I'm not mad, resentful, and I am actually getting to know him!
Chicago is over...
Going to the show tonight... I have to get to that!
I have a lot of things to review, now this new Cd of mine, 30 Seconds to Mars.
I feel... Alright...

Friday, May 5

Over?

Why can't it be over? I don't have time for this!
Next time, when I get back from Chicago, I will review Rihanna and All American Rejects, and maybe even 30 Seconds to Mars!
Why can't illness be causing this sick feeling inside?!

Tuesday, May 2

Prom Today, Gone Tomorrow


Prom was awesome! I got so much done, I looked wonderful and got so many comments. It was a great day apart from some transportation confusion... It all worked out though...

I want it over
Assumptions, questions, emails...
Loneliness is fun

I hate being the girlfriend-to-be. It makes me fisically sick when I think of it.

I dont want this now
I dont want any of it
I want to leave this

Make it a happy event if you want, pictures were nice, dancing was kewl, we look nice together. But leave me alone about it. I get emails from him now, on a regular basis. Its kewl, they are nothing but conversation, but its something else people can comment on. Just leave me be on it though. Just like with Fredrickson I want to run away from this, spit on it, even make a fool of myself if i have to. I can't wait till graduation now, because it will be one step farther from here, him, everything. I will be at Finlandia, work, then Northern. Not here, never here.

Never here again
Leave me to my own half-life
Without this love stuff

Ick.