Ski Trip... woo

This was something! This was one special trip! A lot of nerves, a lot of new ideas! I felt like crap on the way to the Ski Trip, the smell of burnt chips lingering in the Church Van, and I felt like a pill on the way back. Sides were taken, childishness and ignorance. Bitterness from the church service gave me a headache for hours. I really just can't wait for the better service later on tonite. Maybe it will make me feel better, and not like a retard or someone who even still doesn't fit here even when I thought I did perfectly. I wish there was a church with my name on it! Or at least somewhere more welcoming than these places where I dont feel supported, but only put up with and contained.
Listening To: Jem I Am: About to read to make me feel better.